Conundrums

Bing bang boom, a second week of the course is done and we have already severed a casualty. Last week when our course started Gen Lodoe la had selected a class monitor to be responsible for the various doings that need to be done by the class. Well with reason known to no one or to a few who are unwilling to say, our class monitor done packed he bags and split. I was a bit sad that he had left; thus far he was a good disciplinarian, keeping our young monks in check. He had the correct demeanor one would expect out of such a figure. And so we had to elect another, who is a nice guy and I hope that he will prove himself but thus far he is a bit of a pushover. I have a feeling that another monk will come in the near future. We did gain a new lay student from Taiwan, poor guy has only been studying Tibetan for about less than two months and he seems very diligent, so I hope that he will be able to catch up. I do have my doubts though for many of us who have been studying Tibetan for 2 or more years are finding this course quite difficult. But that does not mean that it cannot be done, I have met and heard of folks who have done it, those who are diligent and have an affinity for brightness.

And thus, our second week has started and we can already see those students who have been showing the early signs of good reasoning powers. May be some of them have studied before but if they had then not that much but enough to cause one’s head to spin when engaged in debate with them. In class our Morpheus-like teacher who leads us down the rabbit hole of elementary Buddhist reasoning will set up the most difficult conundrums for us at of the most seemingly simple questions. Those students who are showing some talent in class are being shot down left and right by Gen la’s sharp yet relaxed analytical skill. There is a saying in Tibetan, arguing with a Geshe, here being Gen la, is like banging one’s head against a wooden board, thus meaning that you can just forget about winning that argument. Many of these conundrums have to do with making the distinction between the world of casual conversation and the world of logic. There are many paradigm debates that we run through; debates that I feel have been debated on for time immemorial in Tibet. These initial debates at this point have little if anything to do with Buddhist soteriology for the point is to train one’s reasoning skills to the point where these more difficult and abstract topics can be properly tackled.

And so, we have the white horse debate, in which we actually debate whether a white horse is white or not. The first time I heard that Tibetan monks spent hours debating this; I thought that this must be the silliest thing ever to debate about. It is like the joke we use to tell each other in elementary school, “What is the color of George Washington’s white horse?” and the not so bright one sits there wide-eyed trying to figure the color of George Washington’s white horse. It is quite a fun thing to debate about actually since it is not very deep and it helps one to run through the reasoning process. So what’s the gig then? Is it white or not? The proper answer is no! According to the Buddhist philosophical position (rang lugs) that we are studying, do de pa (mdo sde pa) in Tibetan/Sautrantika in Sanskrit, a white horse is not white because it is a person. Now a clarification needs to be mentioned here. It this system and probably in Buddhism in general a person is any “being who is imputed in dependence upon the any of the five aggregates” which is the tsan nyid (mtshan nyid), characteristics, of a person. The five aggregate that make up a person are the aggregates of form, feeling, cognition, formatives and consciousness. And so a human being, which we would have considered a person is also accompanied by animals, for though animal might not have cognition they probably have the rest and according to our tsan nyid then it is a person.

A person and a color are mutually exclusive being that there is nothing that “is” both. Here meaning that a horse “possesses” the color white but “is” not the color white. Color falls under a heading called form, and horse which is a person falls under non-associated compositional factors. Since these two shares no common locus, then white which falls under form, and horse which falls under non-associated compositional factors, are also mutually exclusive. It is proper to say that “the color” of a white horse is white, for then one is clearer in their assertions. One of the points of this kind of exercise it to train the student between the distinctions of everyday life, in which our colloquial speech serves different functions and purposes, and one of philosophical inquiry where the simple statement of a white horse being white does not hold true. Some students have been able to make this distinction very quickly while others are struggling with it. If I were to walk down a street in Manhattan and ask the first suit that I saw that a white horse is not white, he’ll probably laugh at me or think that I am some nutcase. Many such conundrums have been presented to us by Gen la that leaves our heads straining trying to figure out the answer.

I have noticed a slight improvement in my understanding, with a huge emphasis on slight. Gen la told us that it will take many of us awhile to get accustomed to this process, meaning years. Anyways, we had our first group debate last Friday, called a dam cha (dam bca’), literally meaning thesis. In a previous blog entry I had described a dam cha of the previous class that I had attended. Since we are beginners, we debate amongst ourselves and then later we will invite students from the upper class to debate with us. These dam chas pretty much puts all of us against each other and at first it is tough but has I have seen with the advanced students that after years and years of debating each other that no hard feelings are kept. As in contrast to what I have heard about Law school, where some pretty malicious happenings comes about due to the high level of competition placed on the students. It does not mean that things do not get out of hand, for they do, but supposedly these situations are few and far apart.

Our class was divided in three groups and each group had to send two defenders to another group and the group that they went to will then proceed to engage them in debate. Our group was not happening as compared to the other groups, many of us are shy or feeling that we do not know enough, so my group suffered due to shyness. But of course with time we will get better and probably all of us will have our egos smashed to bits when we have dam cha’s with the advanced students. Once again, I hope that due to the subject matter that this blog entry is not too horrendously boring.

Pax

Dhiih

My first week of class is over and I sit here trying to digest the experiences and sensations from my previous week as a neophyte Buddhist philosophy student, potentially perspective “Smack Master”. Our first day of class was on Monday, the ides of March, the day of the infamous coup against Roman Empire Julius Caesar. All of the students were told to bring three khatas (Tibetan silk scarves used for offerings, welcoming, etc) and to go to the temple. Our teacher, Gen Lodoe la, had us offer the khatas, one on the throne of the HHDL and another one to the Shakyamuni Buddha. Then we all went to our classroom, which was the apartment of the HHDL, which he used only once when he inaugurated Sarah College back in the day. This classroom is on the top floor of the main office/temple/library building located in the center of campus.

Once situated, Gen Lodoe la proceeded to call roll asking where everyone was from. One thing that is apparent about our class is that there are only 4 Tibetans; most of the monks are from Ladakh, Spiti, and Arunachel Pradesh. Folks from the Arunacheli/ Tibetan border region are called Monpa. Gen Lodoe la would be calling out a monk’s name and he’ll say, “Are you Tibetan?” “No, I am Monpa, or Ladakhpa, etc”. Now the folks from these areas are Tibetan by race, their dialect is a Tibetan dialect and way back in the day they were a part of Tibet or had connections with Tibet. For example, the 6^th Dalai Lama, Rinchen Tsang yang Gyatso was born in what is now Arunchel Pradesh. After talking with some of these monks, though they know their own dialect, many are not comfortable with speaking Central Tibetan dialect which is the dialect most widely spoken at Sarah College. Seems like most of them, following the traditional monastic way of learning, know how to perform various rituals, which require lots and lots of memorization. That is usually what a young monk learns first from childhood up until his late teens, and then after that, some learn philosophy. I have heard with the recent Chinese tightening of the Nepalese-Tibetan border since the protests in Lhasa and around other areas of Tibet in the spring of ’08 that not as many monks and nuns are escaping from Tibet. The three huge monastic seats in South India, Ganden, Sera and Drepung are accustomed to receiving each, several hundred monks a year, now the rumor is that they are struggling to scrape together even ten or twenty monks. I think that they are not the only monasteries facing this problem. Even the Tibetan Children Village, a primary modern educational school system for exile Tibetans, is not receiving nearly the amount of kids from Tibet that they have received in the past. These days Tibetan families who have been in exile for awhile are not willing to send their kids to the monasteries when then there is the option for their children to have a modern education. There are some monks who are totally born and bred in exile, but that is no way near enough to fill up a monastery.

Gen Lodoe la laid down the rule of the class, and our schedule. There are some things that are mandatory that everyone must do. He selected our class monitor who is in charged to make sure that everything gets done. We have cleaning duties on Saturday, which is always a half day unless it is a second Saturday which we have off. If we need to excuse ourselves from class for any other reasons besides medical and visiting the Foreign Registration Office, we need to have an official permission to be absent slip and even with that we are fined 10 rupees, without it then 20 rupees. Now it does seem that expensive but that is just not per day but for every event that we miss in a day. So our schedule is 8 to 9:30 am debate, 10:30am to 12:30pm lecture, 2 to 4pm mandatory study session, 6:30 to about 7:15pm initial prayers for evening debate, 7:15 to 9pm evening debate. So that is five events if missed with a permission slip is 50 rupees without one then is it 100 rupees. Minimum wage in India is round about 100 rupees a day so for the monks it is quite expensive.

The water bowl offerings for the temple, something like 50 or more metal bowls, must be done every morning and cleaned up every afternoon with the responsibility being divided up amongst the classmates. We all must do kitchen duty which is shared on a rotating basis every week with the other 5 fives classes. Gen Lodoe la also selected out the Umze “Chant Leader”. Since we have to do initial prayers before the evening debate session the Umze needs to learn the melodies all the chants. The preceding class had recorded the whole thing, so that we could learn them. Though Gen la, did teach some of our textual works for class, for our first two days we recited those evening prayers so that we could get used to them. One of the nuns brought her laptop to class and played the recording and with the prayer books we recited the prayers. The first day we did this for 4 hours and the second day we did this for 6 hours. Because one round of prayers last about 45 minutes we recited them twice, with our current Umze leading it on the twice though.

Since we are all beginners and the Gen la doesn’t expect us to have any experience in debate, he leads us through the lecture. So far we have three texts, our main text is a book that he wrote to teach debate, which is based on another book that we got called the Tutor’s Collected Topics. The Tutor is Purbujok Jamba Gyatso, tutor of the 13^th Dalai Lama, who had written this book to instruct the then young Dalai Lama in debate. We also got the Ratöd Collected Topics, which is called the mother of all Collected Topic texts, because all other Collected Topic texts are based and/ or came after that one.

What is Collected Topics? First, Collected Topics are a kind of logical formulas, that in a way, help one understand a particular text written by the Indian Buddhist dialectician Dharmakirti, who wrote “The Commentary on Dignaga’s ‘Compendium of Valid Cognition’”, which is quite difficult to understand. So, many Collected Topics texts are called something like “That which opens the eyes towards understanding Valid Cognition” or “The Magical Key the opens one to the meaning of Valid Cognition”. Collected Topic texts are also kind of similar to those chess books that teach chess strategy, like the king’s gambit, queen’s gambit, fool’s mate, etc. It provides the students with lines of reasoning just like those chess books provides the appropriate move depending on how the other player has moved. I remember when I first started studying Buddhism in college the basics of Buddhism were taught, the four noble truths, eightfold path, dependent arising and so forth. And one might think that that will be the first thing that Tibetan monks learn in their philosophical education. But that is incorrect, at least for how it is taught here at Sarah which follows a Gelukpa curriculum. The first lesson is on color, the first topic. Ok, this is a debate course, right? Yep, totally on point. And you learn to debate colors? Yep! So one might ask what is there to debate about colors, and what is Buddhist about that debate?

Collected Topics are a pedagogical tool that helps the practitioner to develop reasoning skills primarily. Topics such as the above mentioned four noble truth, etc are studied years down the line and are very advanced and complicated topics. Gen Lodoe la said that Collected Topics are meant to develop rigs lam or the path of reasoning. The path of reasoning it is something that one can possess. Some have it naturally, but others need to train to acquire this skill, like me. Reasoning and analyst are central components to all forms of Tibetan Buddhism I believe. Even though not all systems will approve of a method such as used in Collected Topics, analyst of ones subject, no matter what it is, need to be investigated and analyze. Things are not to be taken on faith alone. The Collected Topics pedagogical method is one effective way of gaining that skill.

Thus comes the place for the first topic “Colors”. If you have any interest in learning about the experience and background of Tibetan Buddhist Debate, I recommend the great book, “The sound of two hands clapping: The Education of a Tibetan Buddhist Monk” by Georges B.J. Drefyus, who became to the first Westerner (Switzerland) to gain a Geshe Degree (the equivalent to a PhD, post-doctorate and them some). Drefyus studied at the same institution where I am studying though 20 some odd years prior and I think him and our teacher Gen Lodoe La were classmates. Now for those of us you have a very strong bond to logic and philosophy and would rather prefer something more technical there is Daniel Purdue’s huge nearly 1,000 page book, “Debate in Tibetan Buddhism” which is a translation of the first section out of three of the Tutor Purbujok Jampa Gyatso’s Collected Topic text. The actual text in Tibetan is only 36 pages!

There are many lessons that need to be learned in order debate. In Tibetan the word mainly used for the study of debate is “tsan nyid”, which is a translation of the Sanskrit “lakshana”, meaning, characteristics. Tsan nyid has also been translated into English as definition, but tsan nyid gives one the defining characteristics of an object. For example, the tsan nyid for color is that which is suitable to be shown as a hue, which shows the characteristics of color being that it is suitable to be shown as a hue. If one search’s the word color in the Oxford Dictionary it says, “The property possessed by an object of producing different sensations on the eye as a result of the way it reflects or emits light” this is a proper definition of color as compared to the tsan nyid. The tsan nyid plays such a crucial roll in these studies that memorization and understanding of it is a must, for without it there could be no debate.

In Gen Lodoe la’s book that he teachings out of we memorize the paradigm debates that he has formulated. They are an outline of all the division and tsan nyids of the various Collected Topics and in class, Gen Lodoe la in a kind of drab sing-song-y voice says one line of the text and we repeat afterwards. He has written it in the debate question and answer format so that not only does one learn the division and tsan nyids but also the basic correct format of debate. Since debate is very formal, students need to have these formats down pat. For example, we are taught trilemmas and tetralemmas which compare two things or phenomenon. To analyze phenomenon that can be seen is a lot easier as compared to things that one cannot be seen like the impermanence and a mental consciousness. The easiest comparison is called in Tibetan mu sum, or in English a trilemma. Trilemmas are any two things that have three possibilities within themselves. For example, color and the color blue is a trilemma, the first possibility is that there are things that are both color and the color blue like a blue car. The second possibility seeks to find things that are color but not the color blue, here the color of a red flower. The third possibility seeks of find things that are neither, so the most popular example is the horns of a rabbit. According to this system of thought, the horn of a rabbit does not existence thus being neither a color nor the color blue.

Now in a tetralemma, mu shi in Tibetan, catushkoti in Sanskrit, which said to be particular to Tibetan and Indian Buddhism, seeks to find four possibilities between two things. The color green and the color of a cloth are said to be a tetralemma, firstly, there is something that is both: the color of a green cloth. Secondly, there is something that is green but that is not the color of cloth, the color of green house. Thirdly, there is something that is the color of a cloth but that is not the color green, color of a red cloth and lastly, there is something that is neither the color green nor the color of a cloth, the horns of a rabbit. With what we have seen above, all this is very common sense, but the format is what is important here, one is made to go through each of the possibilities in debate and providing the correct reason to each them. There are also two other ways to compare phenomenon: thing that are mutually exclusive are any two things that do not share a common locus, like apples and oranges. Mutually inclusive things are any two phenomenons that have the same meaning, like form and matter are said to be mutually inclusive in this system.

Many of the monks are having difficulty with the comparison of phenomenon, now for us who have received a modern western education, whether good or bad, we are thought basic reasoning indirectly, maybe some more directly than others. I have never studied logic in high school or in college. But the monks who have been in monasteries most of their lives might have maybe some basic arithmetic but nothing in comparison to what we would call education. For example, when I was debating with a monk yesterday, going through each of the individual trilemmas, I asked him to posit something that was a color but that was not the color red? In which afterwards the monk, who was sitting on the ground in front of me, with a very confused look on his face, shyly scratching the top of his bald monk head for a few moments, then said the color red . I just looked at him; we went through this same procedure over and over. So far, we have only debated 5 times, Wednesday morning being our first debate session, during which Gen Lodoe la walks kind of stoically around the grassy debate courtyard listening to our debates, which kind of reminds of a shepherd gently watching the flock, he is just there, chillin’ with a total ease and when you are going the wrong way he gives the correct advice to get you in the right direction without any force. My friend Jeremy who is in the Advanced philosophy course at the IBD campus in McLeod Ganj told me that Gan la reminds him of Morphesus from the Matrix. Gen la is a monk, obviously, and he has an eye condition so he is always wearing sunglasses, which also adds to his somewhat cool demeanor. After already coming by a first time he came back again by where monk and I were debating with me standing up asking questions and the monk answering on the ground. At one point Gen Lodoe la and I were laughing very hard, totally not dissin’ the monk, but at the responses that he gave. So this stuff is very difficult for all of us, for me because Tibetan not my first language and I am not in the habit of memorizing mass corpus of text, like the monks have.

If one has ever seen Tibetan monastic debate it can be quite a show. All of the Tibetan monastic traditions practice debate, there is a great video that I found on youtube of monks debating at the Dzongsar Monastery in the Kham province of Tibet. Here if you watch this video you will see some very aggressive behavior. There is a lot of clapping and stomping involved, but has with any thing Tibetan and/or Tibetan Buddhist every thing has a second and a profound meaning. In debate you will see one person standing who is the challenger, and his asks the question with the hand clapping and stomping business. Then there is the defender who is sitting in front of challenger. The defender is limited to four types of responses depended on how a questioned is asked. Syllogisms and consequences are the two main types of ways of ask questions, Tibetans place more emphasis on consequences above the syllogism, for with the use of the consequence a challenger can tease out a defender faulty assertions.

The main deity of debate is the Bodhisattva of Wisdom Mañjushri (see left corner photo). Every morning before prayers it is quite normal to hear folks reciting very rapidly, Om ah ra pa tsa dhi dhi dhi dhi dhi dhi, repeating the dhi as many times as one can in a single breath before they start over again. Dhiih: is the seed syllable of the mantra of the Bodhisattva Mañjushri. With debate seen as a path in which one can gain wisdom, the Bodhisattva Mañjushri plays a huge roll. Even the gestures of debate are said to have come from the iconographical representation of this Bodhisattva of Wisdom.

From Daniel Purdue’s “Debate in Tibetan Buddhism”,

At the opening of a session of debate, the standing Challenger claps his hands together and recites the seed syllable of Mañjushri, “Dhiih”. Mañjushri is the manifestation of the wisdom of all the Buddhas and as such is the special deity of debate. In debate, one must have a good motivation, the best of which is to conceive the special motivation of the Great Vehicle, the thought to establish all sentient beings in liberation. “But to fulfill this wish is not easy. You must have great knowledge and wisdom; and for this you recite ‘dhiih’, asking Mañjushri to pour down a torrent of wisdom upon you. …The seed syllable ‘dhiih’ has a very special effect upon Mañjushri,” (Geshe Rabten). Together with the seed syllable of Mañjushri the challenger begins the debate with the statement, “Dhiih! The subject, in just the way [Mañjushri debated] (dhiih ji ltar chos can).” According to Denma Lochö Rinpochay, the meaning of this statement is: “Just as Mañjushri stated subjects in order to overcome the wrong views and doubts of opponents, so I with good mind will do also.”

Upon first seeing a debate, the most striking characteristic is the hand gestures. When the Challenger first puts his question to the sitting Defender, his right hand is held above the shoulder at the level of his head and the left hand is stretched forward with the palm turned upward. At the end of his statement the Challenger punctuates by loudly clapping together his hands and simultaneously stomping his left foot. Then he immediately draws his right hand with the palm held upward and the same time holds forth his left hand with the palm turned downward. This motion of drawing back and clapping is done not in two sharp movements, but with the flow of a dancer’s movements.

Holding forth the left hand after clapping symbolizes closing the door to rebirth in the helpless state of cyclic existence. The drawing back and upraising of the right hand symbolizes one’s will to raise all sentient beings up out of cyclic existence and to establish them in the omniscience of Buddhahood. The left hand is able to overcome powerless cyclic existence, for the wisdom cognizing selflessness is the actual antidote to cyclic existence. The right hand represents method which for the Great Vehicle is the altruistic intention to become enlightened, called the “mind of enlightenment (byang chub kyi sems, bodhi-citta)”, motivated by great love and compassion for all sentient beings, The clap represents a union of method and wisdom. In dependence on the union of method and wisdom one is able to attain the auspicious rank of a Buddha.

On a side note quoted from Lati Rinbochay: The union of wisdom and method represented by the pressing together of the palms had to do with subtle wind channels of wisdom in the wrists which meet when the debater claps his hands together.

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So one can see, that these gestures do have another meaning behind them, unfortunately most people are unaware of them, which is why a decided put that quote up. Now that my first week is over, reflecting on the busyness of the schedule, and what has transpired, meeting by new classmates and so on, I take a huge sigh and say wooooo. This course is intense. The days goes by quick, before when I was in the Tsamjor it felt more spacious but now everything is on top on each other. I need to experiment with my schedule for since the course has started it has been hard to get to bed before midnight. But I like it so far. I think that this is a great thing for me. I know that I will have many difficulties as I progress, and I hope that I can deal with them with skill and understanding. All of my classmates are very nice and I hope for some good friendships to be built out of it regardless that we are so different from each other. I hope that this entry was not too long and boring to read, I have a small understanding of logic and philosophy and with explaining what I am experiencing and providing you with an idea of what I am experiencing as a difficult process, is daunting to me because the subject matter is very technical and is not of interest to many. So I need to think of a different approach to represent what is now a main part of my life. I hope that I can keep up with these regular posts, but seeing how time intensive this course is, it might not happen. Much Love.

Pax

Voice of the Tibetan Feminine: Part 2

Today on the commemoration of 51th anniversary of the Tibetan women’s uprising in Lhasa, I would like to present to 1st place essay written by a Tibetan woman from the province of Amdo in Northeastern, Sung dü kyi. I hope that you enjoyed yesterday's essay and that you will enjoy this one even more.

Pax

From past to present: Did the condition of gender inequality exist in Tibet?

Prologue

Usually, when a girl was born in Tibet the parents had a sense of the unfortunate-ness for having given birth to a daughter as compared to the birth of a son. I would like to elaborate on the reasons why this sad situation, of having such resentments toward the birth of females and of the situation of females in general, exists in Tibet.

Section 1: Women in General

From the term “skye dman” low birth as used in the Tibetan language to designate women it can be seen that women in general have no rights of their own. The general situation in Tibet, especially those from nomadic families is that the man is granted a lot more freedom of movement as compared to the woman. He is allowed to go and do as he pleases while the she is expected to stay at home, watch over the livestock, clean, cook and nurture the children and since there is little education illiteracy is very high and thus their learning is extremely confined.

Section 2: Women’s Rights

From the Tibetan historical annals there is sufficient evidence of women’s activities in the field of writing, but thus to the viewpoint that “Men are superior and Women are inferior” the mention and the importance of their scholarship has seriously declined. It is said that one of the wives of the Great Tibetan King Songtsan Gampo wrote that “one should support governmental or royal activities”, but her views as to the rights of women were suppressed. These archaic views as to the rights and equality of women are still prevalent and hard to eliminate, even in this day and age were the ideologies of old has been replaced by more scientific points of view.

As for the aspect of romantic love, if a Tibetan woman wanted to express the desire that she was in love with a certain suitor or that she wanted to marry someone that she was in love with, it would not have been permissible for her to do so. But on the other hand if a suitor inquired in to the family of a girl that he desired that girl would be viewed in the same manner as articles for sale in a store. She would have no say in the matter, it will be totally decided on her behalf and she will be seen as a piece of property. And in this way lies the fate of Tibetan Women.

In the religious sphere, the differentiation between monks and nuns as far as their devotion and practice are concerned are more or less similar. But if a monk, nun or a lama passes away, the monks and not the nuns are called to reside over of the death ritual ceremonies even though from the point of view of religious practice there is little difference between them. In this way too lies the fate of Tibetan women.

Section 3: Women and Their Relation to Society

If we look at the Tibetan word for society “spyi tshog” we see what the intended meaning is. “Spyi” pronounced “chi” means general or common and “tshog” pronounced “tsho” means group or gathering, and thus we come to the meaning of general group or common gathering. It is related to all things and property that are utilized by all in a collective sense. But lets takes us, women and our rights; we respect all individuals but in Tibetan society in general respect for the individual is not pervasive.

Now looking at religious terminologies such as “las rgyu ‘bras” actions and the principles of cause and effect, “btang snyoms” equanimity, “drang bden” honesty, “rang dbang longs spyod” the leisure of enjoyment etc, are found only as folk quotations from scripture and are very rarely put into practice.

In Tibetan history it is known that the great lama meditator Drokpo had four female students and three male students who were studying under him for the achievement of spiritual realizations. In the same vein, the Great Yogi Milarepa had with him in his mountainous retreat eighteen males and nine females as students. Still regardless of this information that there were great women writers, yoginis, and scholars in the fields of politics, economics, the five traditional studies “rig gnas” and religion, who commonly held the sacred Tibetan cultural tradition together, still the deeply engrained mental implication that “Men are superior and Women are inferior” is very prevalent.

Is it that we as women are incapable of thinking or of preparing a method for improvement or that women themselves prove that these archaic viewpoints are correct? For most of us it is our very environment that suppresses us and it is because of this that our society is unable to involve itself in the movement for the betterment of women’s situation. But generally even though it is seen that rights and responsibilities do not belong together, we have to decide that they belong together. Without the opportunities to achieve woman’s rights the gender gap will increase without rights and responsibilities. We as Tibetan women need to be proud of our naturally inherent qualities such “snying rje” compassion, “bag yod” conscientiousness, “tshul mthun” ethicality, “nyam chung” humility, “khrel yod” modesty, “lhun chags can” one who possesses elegance.

As beings born in this human realm it is most important that we develop: firstly, a strong and steady character and secondly, a strong and steady standard to be able to move towards an ideal of betterment because it can and will be achieved. If we do as those women from the western and northern nations have done in regards to woman’s rights and freedom then from generation to generation we need to be clear that we do not want to bend of under pressure and that we do not want suffering. If we want freedom, we will be able to create the freedom needed for us.

In the histories we have seen that women had a degree of freedom and a high standard and we can again achieve and even surpass those standards. But if we are bound by the iron shackles of archaic ideologies and deplorable environments then how can we rise to a level of freedom and equality. Similarly from the position of inferiority is it not possible that we can think that we possess the distinctions of superiority? How can this be achieved? We need education to be able to rise above archaic ideologies. It might seem like an unreachable goal, similar to how the stars in the sky seen from the earth appear unreachable.

Conclusion

To my most cherished Tibetan mothers who reside with in depths of my heart. We who are known as “skye dman” low birth; do we not have “‘gran sems” competitiveness, “gdeng tshor” confidence, and “nga rgyal” conceit? With these qualities it might seem that we are inferior to our male counterparts. We must eradicate these archaic views toward women for we can not wait and depend on men to give us freedom and equality.

Our time moves very swiftly and we mature rapidly, but with out an open mind, what is the response as to whether our minds are capable or incapable of bondage and liberation? The response to this question is that we can not think in this way. Freedom and equality are our responsibilities. The 21^st century is the time for us to achieve our rights. It is in the precious value of human life therefore that possess our path and our method in which will undo the bind on our minds and move to higher avenues of thinking.

A Tibetan Proverb thus states:

“If the inside is inauspicious”

“It is said that outward meaning is unattainable”

From this proverb I believe that if we all stand together with unity and friendship against archaic ideologies, we will be able to move forward, crossing boundaries to greater possibilities and that we will never be defeated.

College: Sarah College for Higher Tibetan Studies

Class: First year rig gnas

Name: gzung ‘dus skyi

Written: 2008/ 12/ 26

Voice of the Tibetan Feminine: Part 1

On the eve of the commemoration of 51th anniversary of the Tibetan women’s uprising in Lhasa, I will like to post two essays written last spring 2009 by two very gifted Tibetan women writers. These women had won first and second place positions in an essay competition held by the Tibetan Women’s Association (TWA). The essay competition had two language sections I believe, one in English and one in Tibetan. These two essay writers are current students of Sarah College, and I was called one evening by my friend Tenzin Palkyi, who worked for TWA, to translate these two essays into English. When I asked how long I had to translate it, she said in a few days, like 3 or 4, I can’t remember exactly but it was a short enough time that I thought that I could not do it.

First of all, I have never translated anything major before and second, once I saw how incredibly well these women wrote their essays I knew that realistically, in order for me to do a good job at translating, that I would have needed a couple of weeks easily. Palkyi had spoken with Gen Karma la a staff member from Sarah to help me and so with him and one of authoress I was able to translate an essay in a night. And the next day with a different staff member Gen Norzang la, and the other authoress I finished translating the second essay. Our method was pretty simple, since I did not have the time to translate it word for word, I needed to get the essence of each paragraph, so Gen Karma la and Gen Norzang la with the authoress themselves explaining the most important points, I took notes down, then in my room with the original Tibetan text I preceded to translate.

I was doubtful that I would have been able to do it, but with our impromptu translation team it worked out just fine. These translated essays were published in TWA’s magazine. I was glad that my first, and so far only translation work, went toward bringing out the voices of the Tibetan feminine, which is hardly audible. I was surprised at many of the points made by these women, especially since I feel that their observation of gender inequality within their communities are indigenous to their own thought, and not bogged down with Western 3^rd wave Feminist rhetoric, which would have been totally alien to these women.

So here I present you with the 2^nd place essay, written by the nun Chablho Yodron from the U-Tsang province of Tibet who I have developed a lot of respect for. Both these women wrote in a beautifully poetic style with fluid prose and I am afraid that my translations comes no way near to illuminating the skill of these writers, but I hope this gives people a glimpse of the some of the voices represented in the Tibetan feminine. Tomorrow March 12, I will post the 1^st place winning essay.

Pax

The Real Situation of Tibetan Women

Preface

The previous status of Tibetan women has been seen with us having our heads pressed down, but to have our heads raised up high is what is truly needed, in the same way that a path is built to overcome the steepness of a rocky crag. Like the snow god flower “gangs lha me tog” that grows at the top of Mt. Everest our path should remain steady regardless of any situation. To keep up with the changing times the responsibilities of Tibetan women needs to be completely practical; they need to be able to think critically, and to be able to achieve ones aspirations, and to not be like someone who is waiting for sky water, or who passes flatulence under water, one needs deep and subtle analysis to examine what the goal is.

Woman’s Rights and its Relation to Antiquity

This is being written in reference to a statement made by the Cabinet Minister of the Kashag on the 48^th anniversary of Tibetan Democracy Day, “From ancient times up till the present the conditions of gender inequality have never existed in Tibet”.

In the 21^st century, external activities, mainly materialism, has been developing at a fast pace as compared to internal or spiritual development. Since antiquity, Tibetan women have been viewed in extremely barbaric and demeaning ways. I was fortunate to not to have directly witnessed the kinds of discriminations and repressions that my Tibetan female ancestors have witnessed but by the simple fact that I am born female I carry and bare the marks of repression from those times. And also due to that reality, how can I believe the Cabinet Minister of the Kashag who has claimed that, “conditions of gender inequality have never existed in Tibet”?

I feel that it is my responsibility to be a reminder or even better, a messenger to show other Tibetan women that it is important to strive toward gaining opportunity and woman’s rights and not simply to argue about them. I will like to show that with the manner of how I am using this essay that I am striving and struggling for Tibetan woman’s rights and not solely debating about them. We are all witnesses to the repressions that has happened in the past and in the present and they should never be ignored, we should not built a crooked path but a straight and righteous one

In Tibetan history it is known that around the time of the Great Dharma King Songtsan Gampo there existed multiple terms for male and female, the proverb, “be remitting towards a wild slave but do not be attached to what comes out of a woman’s mouth” was prevalent, and when the time arouse for any sort of important or official gathering the women were completely barred from attending these functions and not only that they were barred also from the fields of militarism, economics, education, and politics, this barring is the reason why women were kept in the kitchens. This situation was also prevalent during the reign of the Sakya dynasty.

Women had no rights to make their own decisions, she had no rights to marry whom she desired as can been read in “snang sa ‘od bum gyi rnam thar” a famous Tibetan Opera. This is also clearly seen in light of the time around the 38^th Tibetan King Trison Duetsan who in order to pay a tribute to Guru Rinpoche Padmasambhava for a longevity prayer he offered him one of his wives. Now this should raise the question of, if that was the situation for a woman of royalty then what was the situation of a plebian woman? This should be thought about in depth.

If any women who are struggling for raising awareness for their fundamental rights lifted their voices towards the issues such as women’s livelihood and were depending on the government to instill any plan towards the attainments of these goals then that will only help instill a basis of partially that is meant to control women. It will be seen that our lives are not worth more than rubbish and that we will have no point in achieving a precious human rebirth.

From the vantage point of spiritual practice, it is generally known that any obstacles on the spiritual path are one’s own and that they come from within the practitioner themselves. But when seen particularly from the view of a male practitioner women are always presented as the main obstacle to his enlightenment, to his spiritual realizations. Women are then seen as completely unclean with horrid descriptions of her body, and that they defile the male practitioner. There is no mention made as to the reverse situation. But this does not seem to point to the original source of his obstacle to enlightenment not being women but his own mind.

It has been recorded that male and female practitioners who have reached high levels of spiritual realizations possess certain “elegant qualities”. If a person, male or female, does not achieve these realizations then these elegant qualities are said not to exist. But if the decline of a kingdom is blamed on women, if the loss of freedom that fell on to an entire society was blamed on women, then these words which talk about these elegant qualities are a treasury filled with non-virtues. If this is the case then how can there be any elegant qualities for women regardless of them having spiritual realizations or not?

If we look into the home life of Tibetan women we will see that she is totally bounded by her circumstance. She must suffer simply due to the wimps of her husband. When the husband arrives home intoxicated, his is ready to use any object with in reach to beat his wife. When he has wagered all of his money in gambling he will without bashing an eyelid wager his wife thus treating her not like a human being but like a commodity. Some women are so terrified of their husbands that they runway from home to join a nunnery. This shows that these degenerative views towards women are the habituation of savagery. These thoughts are similar to the yoke used on a pair of plough-oxen that presses down onto the neck of women. If one tried to lift their head up against the yoke the driver will immediately kick one in the rear, but I believe that this situation must be overcome.

From the many sources that the Chinese Government has published, it has been mainly stated that Tibetan women enjoy more rights and equality now than they ever did in the past. But the plain reality is that Chinese women suffer so much and the situation is even worst for Tibetan women. There is no change in the educational system. When a Tibetan woman marries a Chinese man, she is made to pay a really heavy dowry, because of this many women runaway to live on the streets and eventually turn to prostitution since they have lost meaning in their lives.

In the prisons the situation is even more deplorable with the worst kinds of torture imaginable. Woman’s body are extremely sensitive to pain, even just the tap of the hand on a needle is painful enough. Tibetan nuns go through extreme tortures, so how can it be said that women have more rights and equality now than in the past. The world needs to raise it voice against the Chinese government so that true gender equality can be achieved in Tibet.

Religion and its relation to woman’s rights

It is not only the lay female’s responsibility to fight against the antiquated notion that “men are superior, women are inferior”. For as a nun, I believe that nuns too have full responsibility to eliminate this notion. As brilliantly stated by Lord Buddha, “Oh monks and scholars examine my teachings just as a goldsmith examines the purity of gold by scratching, cutting and rubbing it, not by faith to me alone”, we as nuns need to take this advice from Lord Buddha and apply it to the old ideas that view women with inferiority.

Since the Teachings of the Lord Buddha flourished in Tibet the vows of the “dge slong ma” or fully ordained nun has declined and we have completely lost this lineage. His Holiness the XIV Dalai Lama has stated that we must examine the reason for the declination of the “dge slong ma” tradition and search for it.

Within the Judaic, Christian and Islamic traditions women and or nuns have been treated worst as compared to Tibetan nuns. On the other hand, as compared to Korean nuns, Tibetan nuns are rather backward. In Korea the lineage of the “dge slong ma” still exists and in order for a nun to become fully ordained the nun must successfully pass several formal educational and age requirements before she is even considered eligible for the full ordination. But Tibetan nuns are barred their full ordination because of age and lack education.

In the northern border regions of Nepal and India, where people of Tibetan ancestry live, such as Dolpo, Mustang, Lahaul, and Spiti, families typical send their sons and daughters to monasteries and nunneries not out of belief in any kind of spiritual ideals that they find within Buddhism, but they send them solely because they can not financially support them. I believe that this view is in conflict with the purpose and goal of becoming and being a monastic. In order for there to be good monks and nuns, the monastic institutions need to provide both spiritual and secular training, as has been made mandatory in the Korean Buddhist tradition. Of course spiritual training should take precedence over secular training, but that should be done at the discretion of the individual monastic.

Leaders of Great Persistence and Future News

It is very important for all Tibetan women to remember the great women leaders of the past and of the present. Those great women who have stood and fought against the “men are superior, women are inferior” myth and have achieved many positive results towards that end. We should not follow these women blindly but intelligently we should follow their example. For examples of Tibetan women who were innovators in the political sphere I think that Ma ma gro skyi brling ma the Queen of the 7^th century Tibetan King ‘Dags khri btsan po, Khar chen bza’ mtsho rgyal and mChims bza’ lha mo btsun etc, should be thoroughly investigated. For examples of Tibetan women who were innovators in the religious sphere, I think that Ma gcig lab sgron, mKha ‘gro ye shes mtsho rgyal and rDo rje phag mo etc, should be thoroughly investigated. For modern examples I suggest A ma rJe btsun pad ma, dPa’ mo A ma a skyi and the authoress Tshe ring skyi, should be investigated. Our eyes must look to them as our example. For our progression we must first recognized the faults within ourselves, work on overcoming them and start to truly work for the well-being of others.

It is in the 21^st century that Tibetan women will struggle and strive for woman’s rights and gender equality, but those women who are not engaged in the struggle should not mock and criticize those who work hard in the struggle for such actions are damaging the very meaning of the word freedom. It is most important that all women stand together for we are one powerful force as it says in a proverb, “The powers and capabilities of women have the ability to hold up half of the world’s sky”.

Conclusion

Traditionally Tibetan women throughout their lifetime continuously pray to be born in a “more auspicious” male form in the next life. I think that it is better not to pray in this way, if women themselves are thinking in this manner implying that their current state is inferior then men will reinforce this idea. But if we pray like Female Buddha Tara who stated, “For the purpose of all sentient beings I desire to be reborn in a woman’s body” then we will instill within ourselves power and courage. We should pray and aspire to be reborn in a female body, that can live and learn with the times, that can benefit all life, that has control, intelligence, and physical strength, so that we can live a life of meaning. In these prayers we must be like Buddha Tara who was self-reliant. We must use our own effort and our own energy.

The rich Tibetan cultural heritage is extremely amazing and admirable, but we should not think that because this is so that we can not learn from other cultures, that they are lower and less important than our own. Tibetan women should strive to learn from the neighboring countries and expand to a global perspective. We need to eliminate the worst from our culture and take the best from others.

His Holiness the XIV Dalai Lama has stated numerous times, “if you are unable to work for the happiness of others, then at least avoid harming others” and with this view you should carry out your goals and aspirations. This needs to be done with scientific exactitude, with reason. Although the past was completely backward and that we must remember the past, at the same time we need to venture forward towards development.

The violent and calm streams pass by way of various routes but reach the same vast ocean regardless of whatever obstacles that stood in their way. In the same way, there are different types of Tibetan women, some violent and some calm, but all regardless of the challenges that lay before them are able to overcome any obstacles with pride and courage. Like Anne Frank who shared with the entire world her sincerity, and honestly, despite of the immediate dangers that surrounded her. From her example Tibetan women should learn and grow.

It is my deepest and sincerest prayer and hope that all the women of the future will easily be able to differentiate the good from the bad and attain a fruitful result.

Sarah College for Higher Tibetan Studies

First year rig gnas

By chab lho g.yu sgron given on 2008/ 12/ 21.

February 18, 2010

The night before, my stomach nudged me with gentle touches of the butterflies. With the clothes that I had selected to wear for the oral examination folded neatly on my chair, under candle light, I sat. Three years of study for this coming moment. “What if I didn’t get in”, I thought, “What if I do get in”. Back and forth it went through all the variations in between. The smell of incense reviving me at every second telling me not to worry for whatever may come, let it come. And so, slightly earlier than usual I went to join the slumbering ones, for tomorrow brings new unknown tidings.

At 6:00am to the sound of All India Radio’s Hindi news blaring from my radio I open my eyes like the quick snap of vertical blinds being suddenly opened. My mind takes a minute second or two to focus and to send the signals to my body. Out of bed I go, with no remembrances of dreams I commence my morning toileting ritual. 6:30am the bell is sounded for morning prayers, most mornings since I have been at Sarah I have attended them, and it feels so normal to me now, but this morning there was something different. It had to have been coming from me; I was heavily weighted but also light. It was dawn; the sun still had another 45 minutes until it crested over the lower easterly side of the mountain range. A few of us sit in the temple reciting a milieu of prayers, refuge to the three jewel, the four immeasurables, which wishes that all sentient beings to be free from suffering, offering of the mandala of the universe, the 21 praises to the Female Buddha Tara, supplications to the Bodhisattva of Wisdom Manjushree, we flow from one prayer to the next in a neat rhythm, half hour later, it is over. We all get in to line for breakfast, the habitual round of Tibetan bread and a cup of tea. Now our day begins.

With my new room on the back side of the top fifth floor, I can sit on my balcony and watch the sunrise. Before the sun pops over the mountain its presence is anticipated by its rays that hit different parts of the snow-clad mountains. The birds are chirping their song; hawks spread their wings proudly searching for the warmth of the terrestrial emitting heat thermals that allows them to soar to greater heights with out much physical expenditure. House swifts, darts in and out of our dormitory, showing off their mastery of aeronautical flight, I take this all in as I think of the exam to come and what it means to me and to life. I water my wild orchid who is still struggling but I have been giving her lots of love so I hope that she will eventually warm up and perk up for me.

On a small white broad, I wrote out the short version of a prayer called “Bar Che Lam Sel” for clearing obstacles from the path. With it written out in front of me, I studied the grammar and the construction used in the composition of the prayer as a way to possibly activate whatever intentions are instilled within it by the author. I recited it slowly, paying attention to the words that made up its meaning. I did this for a good half an hour. Then I got dressed. The day before I went to Gaggal to get shaved, so my face was silky smooth and I, though still very nervous, was ready to get to show on the road. I arrived at the office and several of the other prospective students were waiting outside, a conglomerate of various Asian faces waited me, Korea, Vietnam, Singapore, Taiwan, China, and India, were all represented. 15 of us total, all vying for this opportunity to join the Dialectic School. We were all cordial and friendly; a Brazilian friend of mine gave me a lot of encouragement and gave me a blessing cord that she had received from my root teacher, H.H. Sakya Trizin when she had gone to Dehra Dun to receive his audience during the Losar vacation. Some pictures were taken, as we stood on the veranda in front of the office on this brisk morning, Tibetans students on their way to class were wishing all of us good luck. In fact, throughout the whole morning students had been wishing all of us luck with the exam.

Eventually my name was called, here at Sarah I use my Tibetan name Ngawang Lodoe, so I heard the Secretary say, “Ngawang Lodoe la nang la phe sho”, I was like, alright it’s business time. As I walked in I saw three tables set in a line towards the back of the room, and behind them sat, Gen Lhakpa la, my professor from my first year at Sarah, Gen Gelek la, one of the professors from I.B.D. and Gen Ngawang Dorje la, my orthography/ calligraphy professor for the pass two years. In front of them lay one lonely chair, in a certain way the arrangement made me think that I was going to be court marshaled instead of being interviewed. I sat down, and then it began.

Gen Lhakpa la started by asking me to give a brief introduction of myself. Then he asked me since English is my first language, I corrected him because Spanish is my first language, anyways he said, what did I think the differences between Tibetan and English and/or Spanish. I was like, shoot the differences are huge, and it would have taken me a lot longer than the allotted 15 minutes we are given for the interview to explicate all of it in full, so I gave an extremely brief answer. I felt that due to my nervousness that my Tibetan was choppier than normal, I held the crap of the blessing cord as the examination progressed. I focused all my nervous energy on the cord, which by then was swimming in my palm sweat.

The next question came from Gen Gelek la, he said, “You know that you should not expect to learn all that there is to know about Buddhism in a couple of years, like 2 or 3. It takes many years just to finish the Sutra side of Buddhism, and that is not to mention the study of Tantra, which takes many more years to study, how will you be able to sustain yourself financially through all that study?” I told him, that I am dedicated, that my whole purpose of being at Sarah College since 2007, learning Tibetan and all, was for this course. I have had the syllabus for this course before I even I started Sarah, so I knew that many years are involved. I knew that if I wanted to have an in-depth look into Buddhist philosophy, the long and tedious training that they provide will prepare me for that and place me in a good position for proper translation work. As for how I will sustain myself, I told him that I had a sponsor. Then he asked “Who’s your sponsor?”, and I was able to say with pride that Dzongsar Khyentse Rinpoche’s Foundation is sponsoring me. “How did you make that connection?” I said my good friend from my first year class at Sarah help me with that.

The next section came from Gen Ngawang Dorje la, he was holding a book and he started by explaining that they wanted to see how our comprehension and reading skills are, so first he will read a random passage and then we are to explicate on that passage’s meaning. I was like, shit! I started getting more and more nervous. My mind to was saying, “I hope that he reads something easy”, over and over again. So he started reading, and I just stared at him, I was like “fuck! I am so done”, besides the first few words I had no idea what he had just read. Like a deer staring into the headlights of an incoming car, I just stared, and then Gen Lhakpa la suddenly said, “Should he read it again?” I was like, damn straight! And Gen Ngawang Dorje La, said “Ok, I will read something easier, I thought that I should start with something difficult and then move to something easier!” Then again he started reading after a few flicks of the pages, and I understood everything he said and on top of that it was a about a subject at that I have studied before in Tsamjor, Tibetan history. I was able to explicate further than what was stated in the passage, pheww! I thought what a relief. Then Gen Ngawang Dorje la, gave me the book to read out loud the exact same passage, I have to say that this was the easiest part, for since I started studying Tibetan in 2004 I have made it a point to always read aloud, so that was a hit.

Gen Lhakpa la, threw out the final question of the exam, “As a student of the Tibetan language here in exile, one encounters many different dialects and accents, what challenges does that bring to the student?” Well hell, I thought, I said that if one is interacting with that person, whose accent/ dialect is difficult to understand regularly then eventually one will get to a point when they will start to understand his/her speech pattern. Since coming to India, I have spoken to folks from all over Tibet, Kham, Amdo, U-tsang, etc and at first it is always difficult. Tibetans themselves struggle with different dialects, so for us international students is harder, but it is not a total blockage to understanding. In Tsamjor, my classmates are from all over Tibet and eventually you just get use to how this particular person speaks. And that was that, my oral examination was over, ten minutes total!

I walked out of that room, called the next person in and unto the veranda where the other applicants were waiting. They fired questions at me, “was it hard?”, “What kind of questions did they ask?” etc… Some got scared that there was a reading component for that was not announced as a something that we will be tested on, so many of them started to practice reading. I wished the others luck and went to my room. As I walked up the stairs, I kept receiving “Good Luck” and “How did it go?” I knew that because I was nervous that I spoke very brokenly and because I did not understand the first passage that Gen Ngawang Dorje la had read that I was worried that I did not do so well. I relaxed for the rest of the day, chatted with friends, and at around dinner time, which is 5:30pm at Sarah, I went to the office to see if the results were out. As soon as I walked in the door of the office, the school warden was the only person in the room. I asked him where the others were and he just points to the bulletin board where the results were posted. Instead of 3 nuns like I originally assumed, they took 4 nuns out of 9 with 1 on the waiting list, meaning that if one or more of them drops out then the nun on the waiting list can join. One Vietnamese nun, one Chinese/Australian nun, one Korean nun, and one Singaporean nun, who had just showed up at Sarah a few months ago, her and her sister were studying at a nunnery for international nuns called Thosamling since January of last year, and came to Sarah maybe around October-Novemberish. Though they joined the beginner’s foundation course both of them spoke decent Tibetan for the amount of time that they have been studying. So her getting in is pretty neat and also a very tiny and cute Vietnamese nun who has been in the foundation course since July, got on the waiting list, which in itself is a huge accomplishment, surpassing others who have been studying for two years. This nun picked up Tibetan rather quickly and though I thought that her chances of getting in were slim, the fact that she got to the waiting list is quite cool. Her name is Nga, and in Tibetan Nga is the word for “I”, so I am always joking with her. On the guys side, there is the topper with 77 out of a possible 90 points, the only Indian student, Kailash, then there is me (Ngawang Lodoe), the only westerner of African decent, at second place with 76.5, Ombak, the youngest one from Taiwan, who flew here just to take the exam and leaves soon to return, at third place with 72, last is the only monk, Tenzin Kunzik from Korean, with 63.5. There was one lay Korean, Tenzin Rabjam, with 71.5, but he is on the waiting list. I think that Tenzin Kunsik got in over the other one for several other reasons beside points. So there you have it, the new international students for the Buddhist Philosophy course. A side note, on that same day Feb 18^th, 2010 on the other side of the globe HHDL met with U.S. President Barack Hussein Obama in the White House.

Through out the past few days, I have been receiving congrats from around the globe, and because of that I have been so happy that so many people believe in me and are happy for me. I thank all of you for sending me your love. I love all of you so very much, please remember this. From amongst the students it has been nice. One of my Tsamjor classmates told me a few days ago, “don’t ever forget that you are a Tsamjor student no matter what, ok?” I think that was his way of telling me to stay humble, to remember where I came from, not to think I am some hot shit now just because I am got into the philosophy course, I appreciated his concern and held it in my heart.

So now the future is ahead, the examination for the prospective Tibetan students is not until the 28^th of Feb at the I.B.D. campus in Mcleod Ganj, and the class probably will not start until after the anniversary of Tibetan Uprising day which is on March 10^th. So that means that we will start with just a month or so of class and then two months summer break for May and June. I will be returning back to the U.S. of A for that time so look for me or give me a holla! I am excited, but also nervous, this course will be very intense the whole way through and there is not easy part to it, memorization and reasoning are the keys to success in this style of course. I hope that the little of debate that I have studied in the pass year will prepare me for what is to come. I have a surface idea on what to expect, but I also know that it is best to have no expectations. I know that I want to do well, that I want to pass my exams. I might totally suck at it, I have not clue at this point. I know that many years of study are ahead of me, and at this point in time I feel that I am ready. We will see as the course commences how it goes.

Wow, I have accomplished an objective, Dialectic School is a wonderful opportunity, and I am soo happy that they deemed me worthy. Now many more objectives are to be accomplished, I hope. I hope to keep all of you up on this new but very ancient learning process, a process that was Tibetanized, but that drew its inspiration from the great debates of old in Ancient India between the various masters and yogis of the Buddhist, Hindu, and Jain traditions. From those and possibly earlier beginnings, I will now join in the learning of this process. My hope is that I can take you along for this ride (without boring you to death, hehehe). Once again, to all of you around the world, I love you all and a hundred and eight thank you.

Pax

To Bring in the New…

I know that I do this every time that I make a new blog entry. First of all, since it has been several months since I have posted one, it makes me wonder if I will have any visitors. The main thing about having a blog is having a constant readership which means one should update regularly. But in my circumstance, due to technology, time and part laziness I don’t have that privilege. So many things have happened and I contemplate what I should view as important enough to or not to mention. For starters, as many of you know I am applying for the Buddhist Dialectics course that is offered every 2 to 3 three years here at Sarah College through the mother school the Institute of Buddhist Dialectics. About three months ago, I wrote my request for an interview, and now I am less than a week away from this very important day. On Feb, 18 I will try to see what the shape of my future will be. I just received the interviewing schedule and I am first on the list. There are 14 interviewees applying for the seats allotted to international students out of whom only 7 will be accepted, 3 nuns and 4 lay or monastic men, or least that is what I have been told. I am the only non-Asian applicant, there are bunch of Vietnamese and Koreans applying, one Indian, and one Chinese, I think. So there is a 50/50 chance of getting in, which I honestly don’t think is too bad. But since I do have doubts, I am still scared shit less. This interview will look out for our Tibetan speaking and listening skill, and our fluency. Each interview will be between 10 to 15 minutes. There are Tibetans applying also but they have a separate application process. So that is a lot, I am full of hope and scared at the same time. For all of you out there I could use all the prayers, luck and wishes that you can muster. It will be so appreciated.

To me this exam will be like a show or proof (in away) of all the hard work that I have placed into learning this language. Tibetan is not an easy language to learn, and Tibetans themselves very rarely show any sense of appreciation to those who attempt to learn their language. At least that has been my experience. From day one, it has been the exact opposite, and because of that I have gotten severely bummed out at times, because I know that I am trying hard, I know that I am not perfect but I am trying. It saddens me to see what the beginning students have to go through. It amazes me at how we have beginning students who have been at Sarah since July who can not even say hello in Tibetan. Now to be fair, a part of it is the students own fault, they do not tend to hanging much if at all with the Tibetan student body, or like don’t do their language drills. But the other half is that the xenophobia at Sarah is so high that an international student does not feel totally free and comfortable to attempt to speak in Tibetan. Especially if they are from the west for naturally when Tibetans see a westerner their first instinct is to speak in English, regardless if that person can speak it or not. For those students this is where the extra challenge for learning Tibetan at Sarah comes. I was lucky in that before a came to Sarah I had a years experience with this phenomenon in McLeod Ganj thatI placed myself in a environment where I could speak the most Tibetan that I could and that was when I lived for six months with a Tibetan family. That was not easy either because when I first moved in they where not accustomed to speaking to me in Tibetan for the first few weeks, even though I always spoke and replied in Tibetan. Finally after being discouraged by that I decided (after getting some advice) I will tell them to speak Tibetan or I wouldn’t pay my rent. Boy, that did it, and since then it has not been a problem. I was amazed though, that I had to go to that extent, that I had to beg for it. Many students are not willing to beg or even acknowledge that they have to. I had this thought wondering if French language students living in France has to beg folks to speak French to them, hmmm?

My first Tibetan teacher from the Cornell Tibetan summer intensive program, Tenzin Thinley la, had warned me about this before I first came to India. He told me that Tibetans in Dharamsala must get used to speaking Tibetan with foreigners, and that I should speak Tibetan regardless if they use English. He said that it will be good for them to learn such things. When I heard this I was quite surprised, because I figured that that should not be a problem for people whose language they are trying preserve. I figure that they will be appreciative of other people, who seriously try to learn, but now I understand what Thinley la meant, and it has saddened me in a way, because I think it might the case why many people give up learning Tibetan after the first year, and Thinley la must have known this from his many years experience of teaching Tibetan in the states.

It is more due to the environment that a language student must deal with rather than the difficulty of the language (which is immense). This is an exile situation, at Sarah for example once you step off campus, you are faced with a totally different language and either you use Hindi if you took the time to learn it, or English. So it is not like living in the country in which the language is spoken. This is India and out side of Sarah and the Tibetan settlements Indian Languages are used. So that makes another challenge which Tibetans don’t see, and then one hears criticism about how bad many international students speak Tibetan.

A few days ago, there was talk on Korean acupuncture done by a Korean acupuncturist who has been at Sarah for a few weeks giving free sessions. He had a Korean nun, from the dialectics course translating for him, and no doubt that she was having a hard time translating and it was difficult to understand. The students around me where saying how bad her Tibetan was, that she should speak better etc. She was around 40 years old when she started learning Tibetan, after she finished the beginners’ language course; she was accepted into the dialectics course. That is no small accomplishment, that course is very difficult and intense, debating difficult philosophical points in a foreign language. We all know that as one gets older it is increasing difficult to learn a new language and this Korean nun totally rocked it out. But was there any appreciation for that, well from what I have seen, no. That fact that her translation was difficult to understand and her Tibetan fluency was lacking is more a reflection of the community that she has been learning from than it is on her, because they are the native speakers, if they actually were easy to engage with. I can recount some many times when trying to start a conversation, and then getting the sense from that person that they don’t want to be seen talking with me because I am foreigner, that awkward silence between quick reply to my questions. Instead of just walking right by you without making eye contact, if there was a sense of comfort that she was speaking the crap out to the language, from day one, being forced to speak by the community, her fluency will be just fine. It is a classic case for finger pointing. We always forget that for that one finger that we are pointing out, those leftover ones are pointing to crux of the matter. I have reflected on this for such a long time, from speaking with beginning students, seeing that this situation is happening to so many who try hard, who have given up their lifestyles, careers, luxuries etc to study this rare and difficult language.

I have mentioned these things to the administration but nothing has come of it. One student tried to set up a space for conversation partners to do a language exchange but that did not seem to have gone anywhere, one of the problems being that most of the beginner’s students being from Korea and Vietnam don’t know English and if they do not very well, which is what got the Tibetan students interested in the first place. For me, with this being my third year at Sarah and my fourth year studying Tibetan, I am comfortable enough in most situations using Tibetan, my reading skills has improved immensely, my reasoning has been improving due a dialectics class I have been taking this academic year in the B.A. program and a Swiss nun, Tenzin Wangmo, who has been so kind to take time from her business schedule of being in the dialectics course to help a few of us in debate.

On the badass, the current college captains, Sarah has a captain for both girls and boys, have been working really hard to create a one-school feeling, by buying sports equipment so that more people can play, and trying to break everyone’s habits of sitting with only those that they know from class or village-mates in the dinning hall. For generally, the Ladakhis, Amdowas, Khampas, and international students tend to eat in their own group without much interaction, and I was so happy to see that the college campus captains ( I am sure due to some insightful nudges from a far-seeing faculty member) took the challenge and the initiative, that as students entering into the dining hall they stood at the entrance telling folks to sit next to someone that they have never sat with before. They arranged the tables and chairs in rolls to break up the clusters of groups that it was. I really hope that it works, since then I have interacted to people that I have seen for three years but never even said hello to. I appreciate the far-seeing hard work that these individuals have taken. Wow, I just felt that I have unloaded a lot. I hope that this unloading doesn’t impede in the reading of this entry.

The current philosophy course which has been at Sarah since I have gotten here had their final exam last week. And now they are completely finished at Sarah and their next class will commenced at the I.B.D mother campus in March up the hill in McLeod Ganj. Thus being the reason why a new class is starting now. I just changed rooms, from the one that I have been for the pass few years on the third floor. Jeremy, an American student in the dialectics course let me take his old room, which is so cool, his room has a fan, nice porch, linoleum on the floor (which I can mop!!!), and a very sad looking wild orchid that a Korean nun from his course had dug out from the surrounding forest and planted in a huge loofah sponge looking thing that one can hang. This new change is so nice, the Tibetan New Year is around the corner, which this year lands on Valentine’s Day (Love, Love, Love), and my future will be decided four days after that, so it is quite a light delightful feeling. Moving helps to breaks old habits, and to starts new (and hopefully) better ones. Environment is everything and this change of environment is great with hope for the future. I have such a badass view of the mountain range and the neighboring village since I am on the top fifth floor.

I would like to mention one more thing; on Friday, Jan 15^th I got to witness the annular solar eclipse, which was so cool. It was partial in this part of India but it was great to see it. The last one I saw was a total solar eclipse that happened my second year of high school in Coral Springs, Florida some 15 years ago. I went to show Jeremy who had never seen a solar eclipse before, when he then recounted a debate he was having with a monk who only knows and holds the Buddhist cosmological view of our world which entails the multilayered Mt. Meru which is surrounded by four continents of the four directions of which our world is the southern Jambudvipa, which in turns is orbited by our sun. So after viewing the eclipse, Jeremy calls the monk with whom he was debating this with and had him check out the eclipse. He did not know what is was at first, but I think he then understood what was going on once it was explained to him. I thought that that was so cool, monks in pass have not gotten a modern education, so when it comes to these things many are completely ignorant. This monk did not freak out that his view of the world was incorrect. He saw the proof, accepted it and moved on. Now for most, one might say, “So what, what the big deal?”; this reminded of an experience I had when I was attending Berea College in my sustainability class, the professor was talking about the age of rocks and how scientist can check it with carbon dating, and one of the girls sitting next to me in my class turns to me and says, “Oh I don’t believe in such non-sense”, and I asked what is there not to believe, she replied, “Our universe is not more than 3,000 years old, that is what it said in the Bible and the bible’s word is the word of God, so this stuff about million year rocks is non-sense!”. My mouth just fell agape in amazement upon hearing this, a college-going intelligent young woman saying such things and on the other hand seeing this traditional educated Tibetan monk who once he saw the proof that his world view was incorrect accepted it with no more of a shrug and smile, both them very dedicated to their faith. That just blew my mind. There is nothing like planetary activity to put things into perspective.

I will end with that note; a new beginning is coming for me and for all I hope. A beginning that brings us all closer to loving each other, loving ourselves, our lives, our preciously short time on this tiny blue spinning ball, our dreams for a better future with understanding and wisdom. A beginning that allows us to think big, way way beyond ourselves. To all out there in the world and beyond: Much Love, ¡Un abrazo muy fuerte!

Pax